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Thursday, July 21, 2011

Through Experience Comes Knowledge


     It's hard to believe I have been a nurse for 2 years. It seems like just yesterday I was graduating nursing school and preparing for the NCLEX. In my eyes I am still a baby nurse, all though I can walk on my own I still depend on those higher than me for support. Lately,  I have been thinking about what I have learned over the last 2 years and how much I still have to grow. The following are things I learned and know for sure about Nursing...

      *Nurses are the eyes and ears of everything healthcare. We are the liaison between the patients and the physicians. We instruct, or in doctors opinions "recommend" what would be best and needs to be done to keep our patients healthy. During a twelve hour shift we commit ourselves to our patients, we start off us strangers and depart with well wishes and hope. We assess, treat, medicate, bathe, feed, reposition, walk, monitor and emotionally support our patients. We dedicate ourselves to being clincially excellent and emotionally available.. We are trusted with life threatening medical information, dying wishes and biggest fears. We see people at their worst and convince them their hair doesn't look that bad. We are everything healthcare.

     * The scariest word in a hospital besides cancer, is Oops!



     *Men are bigger babies than women, end of story. I have seen more men cry about lab draws, IV sticks, headaches, catheters, surgery pain and the "uncomfortable" hospital environment than any woman.




     *CPR is the most violent act I have ever seen



     *  Bad things Happen. Wear a seat belt while driving, keep your baby buckled up in the backseat, wear a helmet, don't text and drive, don't let fido sit on your lap while operating a motor vehicle and look both ways before you cross the street! 




    *The hospital is a dirty dirty place. Did you know most nurses don't wear their shoes in their house? Or immediately shower after leaving the hospital? I can promise you, if you knew what was on the floor 5 minutes before you walked in to visit grandpa, you wouldn't let your kids walk around barefoot, bring linens from home, play on the floor or bring you newborn baby!


     *Everything we see on Greys Anantomy, Private Practice, House or any other Medical Shows are fake and unrealistic.




     *Nurses see everything and most tell their friends... Penile Implants, Piercings, Foreign Objects Stuck in Body Cavities and Strange Body Fluids, just to name a few! 



     *Heroin will kill you, Meth will rot your teeth, Prescription drug abuse will leave you hopeless, untrustworthy and alone, alcohol addiction will make you do anything for a drink even if it means drinking anti-freeze. 




All though some days are extremely difficult both physically and emotionally. I love being a nurse. I am excited to continue learning and helping others. 


LOVE A NURSE ! 

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Day of Organizing....Day of Remembrance.

   With the excitement of buying my very own townhouse and the alpha phi garage sale around the corner I knew I had to start organizing my life. Deep down I knew why I had been putting this gut wrenching task off for so long.... what memories would be triggered by going through boxes of stuff that I packed when I left cedar city back in May of 2009 and haven't touched since? How many things would I find that reminded me of him? 
    As I took a deep breath, I started. I pulled a large tupperware container from under my bed and started going through it. It was filled with all my nursing school folders. I remember nursing school controlling my life, how much effort I put into school and wanting to be the best nurse ever! Care plans, pharmacology flash cards and five 3 inch binders filled with notes on how to be the perfect nurse.What a load of CRAP!!!  I have learned more in the last 2 years actually working as a nurse than any professor or text book could teach me. Thats the funny thing about school, somethings can't be taught inside a classroom....
   It didn't take long until I was forced to deal with pictures I swore to never to look at again, gifts, poems, love notes and memories of what an outsider would think was a "perfect relationship." My heart hurt,  hurt like hell to be honest. My eyes swelled with tears and I thought about putting all the things that caused so much pain away for a decade! But I knew that at some point I would have to deal with the idea that I was single, and Adam was no longer a part of my life. Although I had known it was over for a very long time, that didn't make it hurt less or make it easier to deal with the memories when we were happy. I stayed strong and sorted through my life, discarding everything that dealt with him. He hurt me, devastated me and the idea of keeping something that reminded me of that deep dark place was unbearable. Maybe I should have reconsidered. Maybe I should have kept the hand written poem about my eyes or the bookmark from my planner with a quote about love and our picture. Maybe one day I'll regret it, but as for today, I did what I thought was best.
    I know throwing away pictures, notes and everything else that whispers his name will never erase the memory of him but maybe, just maybe it will make the memory of him a little further away...